I’m in a ridiculously good mood today which is odd given that I’ve only slept perhaps a total of 7.48 hours this past week.
My hair’s up in a bun today which tells you that I had MAYBE a whole 10 minutes to get dressed today, if that.
But it’s fine because I still look somewhat decent having put in zero effort which is the goal of any sleep deprived grad school student I know.
Not bad for a Thursday.
But anyway, I’ve had some of the busiest few weeks of my life and I feel like a failure because I haven’t had the chance to sit down and write about any of it.
I get home, see my bed, and it practically calls out to me… for me to just lay in it forever. I listen.
But that’s no excuse.
To everyone who reads this blog and to everyone who congratulated me on being freshly pressed, THANK YOU! It means more to me than you’ll ever know.
Ever since I started writing, I thought it would be so cool to have my work freshly pressed on this site.
I never thought it would happen, but still, it’d be kind of awesome.
It WAS awesome.
Then, I kind of freaked out.
I thought to myself…what if I never write anything as good as that again? What if that’s the best I’ve got?
I thought about a Ted Talk by Elizabeth Gilbert that I watched a while back. She talks about how after she wrote Eat Pray Love, people feared that she’d never achieve success again.
Watch it. It’s great.
She says that after her huge success with her book, people would ask her:
Aren’t you afraid that you’re never going to be able to top that? Aren’t you afraid that you’re going to keep writing for your whole life and you’re never again going to create a book that anybody in the world cares about…at all…ever…again?
So why does success freak us out?
Because with every success, we climb THAT MUCH HIGHER up some kind of metaphorical ladder or hill or mountain or whatever.
The higher we get, the harder we fall if we fail.
Think about it for a second.
We spend most of our lives figuring out how to reach our goals, figuring out how to get there.
But what happens when we do? What happens when we achieve what we’ve set out to accomplish?
Is that it? Do we stop there?
When we reach one goal, how about we just keep shooting for another?
Don’t let the fear of failure paralyze you.
Keep moving. Keep doing.
Until you have nothing left to give.
Pretend you’re making lemonade with the last five lemons left on this planet.
Squeeze out every. single. last. drop that exists.
If your lemonade tastes freaking terrible, well, at least you used everything you had.
Same goes for your life.
When you have something wonderful, put everything you have into it.
A talent that you want to explore…
GIVE IT EVERYTHING.
And if you DO fail?
Well, at least you’ll know you did everything you possibly could.
And if you fail REALLY badly?
Well, just call me up and we’ll go have a drink.